a girl u never quite get what u see

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Arghh, i am fed up about certain things. The increasing tension of differ views which had not matter before or doesn't pose a huge issue before, now stand like a thorn between us. Gasp, was moving a wrong decision after all...

I could point it to different reasons. Like how even i dun know what i really want, or the ever convenient excuse-PMS. Or its just simply a spot that i dun like to be put in, and its seem its always me having have to deal with the questions, not u. It wasn't meant to be like that at all..If only a lot of stuffs, but i guess its doesn't work this way, bleah.

It has always puzzle me how i switch from one stand to the other, when it comes to different people and their different stories... I kinda hate it. Cos for awhile it seem i am favoring one over another, but then i realised no matters if its "its worth one more try" or "its time to let go, u deserve so much more..." , what i really want is to protect the friend as best as i could. =)

Some days my solitary scares the hell out of me. And many days i wonder how long this is going to last before it drys up or wells up..

I see her hunch and painful walk back to the room , and i feel the helpless feeling creep back again. Its both self-reprimand and sadness as i looked away. Cos i realised i can do so much more and yet feel i cant do enpugh in time.

U know how u remember those small , almost insignificant yet so special actions / words of others, which just stays as you longer than anything in the world. Here's go see if you could be part of the memories i wont forget for sure

.the knock at the door and the heart wrenching truth and knowing u can cry in front of me

..the sms i received rite after i touched down from a trip a day late

...the toy flower and a sweet get well card for a close one simply cos u care

....the rides back home

.....knowing my cell phone no by heart cos u simply cant 4get

.the bunch of us doing face masks tog all at the same time

..the morning breafast at clementi & the surprise "bloom" at the end

...us ktving and me sleeping

....U wanting to donate blood with yr first bf =P

.tuesday with morris

..U outdoing any other guys' acts by the mere thought tt counted

...the beer drinking competition where u end up last and red

....perfect 10

Okies, I'm supposed to come out with a bdae *want aka WISH* list.. No pressure or must haves, jsut some ideas ,hopefully these will tk the what to buys stress off those who have to battle exam frezzy too. =P

-roxy wallet
-espirit navy blue hooded jacket
-black crumpler
-rick's bag
-a year supply of muffins and flowers?

I give up cos i honestly is happy with having u people turning up for the party =) and whatever u all gets its doesn't really matters las, cos surprises is good too. I know a certain mei nu group have 'promise' a dance and song aka cai yiling. hehe =P really glad that exams are not putting pple off for the party...*hugs****

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