Wednesday, April 19, 2006
During this period of exams mugging, here's what i realised ...
when i start a module afresh with minimal knowlege, every formulae i remember and every theory i understand is a new conquered ground. So i always feel good and maybe even eagered to know more. To go the unventured "grounds"... However as i go through more and know more stuffs, I panicked about forgeting and missing important points. Its like the more u know, the less u seem to know of the module. Dun know for the rest of you, but for me --its been like that for my papers. =S No good really, cos for me studying should be like how i started out. Eager to learn.
on a different note:
Yen said there's no "don't know", only "yes" or "no" pertaining to this. Somehow, i don't know what i am getting myself in. Or how did i got myself into this. Maybe i am asking the wrong question. I am thinking too much AGAIN.
I am just scared that if i said no, i will never be asked again.
Double standards.Its got my name written all over it.
And i am a really good liar to myself. Easy pressy to make myself believe my own rationaling. READ MINE RATIONALINGS. I rationalise that everything is all right and safe. That the questions and my answers is nothing of more than just conversation AND not a GO-AHEAD signal. Haiz, for once i hope its not a lie to self. Maybe a reasonable explanation.
I missed my friends alot. Yah all of you. The GG gang,Pei lynn, DMNs clinque, CL gals and Adr. Luckily for 21st bdae, i am meeting the CL gals this SAT for RONG's bdae celebration. Honestly its a welcomed break from the notes, and i am so looking forward to seeing them and just having a great time. After exams, its time for catch up ---this time , with wonderful friends =)
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