A leg massage every night really helps the arching. Thanks to the i-squeeze machine at ah ma place. But that last  ONE night after work without it, becomes a nightmare. 9 X 4 = 36 hours of torturous standing + a free flow supply of chocalates , is lioke living in heaven and hell at the same time. Conclusion: cute guys don't buy memory cards. ahahahhahaa.

Searching for the familiar figure constantly throughout the 4 days, fruitless and hence depressing. Only to realsie ironically, someone was searching for mine too in the it fair, not knowing i WAS working there. Fruitless attempt for him too.


E feeling to meet and be remember is quite good. Saw IVAN SUm , physic jc teacher, surprised he could recognise me. And even more so that he remembers me. . .

Lonely is a scary feeling. And knowing someone is so, kinda of make you helpless all over again.  With 4 sons, 1 daughter and 14 grand children, my ah ma is still lonely. She still missed him and tears at the thought that she has everything except a companion at old age. helpless. Lost of words. " ni hai you wo men" sound so superficial and really doesn't seem to mend the hollow hole in her.  So i choose silence.

neeway, apparently i looked like a teacher , &a fierce one with my spects on according to one colleague at the it fair. And another commented how my look and personality is the opposite. then he said i si wen. Then i got stumped . Cos now it becomes a chix and egg question. I look si wen? that means my personality is chu lu. If my personality is si wen, i look chu lu? ahhahhahahhaha... I think i really thinks too much about what others think. Cos that statement from this guy who i barely talk more than 2 sentence with, got me pondering for a night. hahhaham, but in the end i conclude. ahhahaha. I am everything of each.ahahhahahhaha.oh well~!

Unqiue,funny how we all want to be different yet end up looking the alike.