I find it very strange that people like to provide information that I am trying hard not to KNOW. Its like they just said it like THAT, and now my foundation is shaken once again!! =P why??!!!


After the windsurfing , i have no more things to look forward to. hahaha, so yen & i are planning a ********, to keep our spirit up.. woahhhhahah. I think its good to have things to look forward to in life.=P

dated:(23/02/05)...i am sorta glad of the bruises and cuts i have. its like kids. how u will show off yr injuries after a game/match etc. proud of wad u been through. the blue blacks are like temp reminders of how i climb up the board so many times, after falling for the umpteen times. it shows my determination.. hhaha, no matter how short and little it last. Windsurfing honestly is fun, have fond memories of it even now thinking back. but it is also very challenging and tough.. hmm, and my nose kept "leaking" after each fall into the sea... oh , i look damm horrible. haha, with my fringe all tangled up and my nose "leaking" and my fruitless attempt to stay balance and pullin up the pole... I was PATHETIC. hahaha. ke. i was discouraged with my failure to windsurf. and when i saw that i was super far from shore and adrain was urging us to return to shore for lunch break, i got the urge to jump in abandon the board and swim back shore and just leave. hahah, but that will be irrational and look too much like a mental break down. So i attempt my "ke lian" act one. hahhaa, i think i sound act look to be my wit end when i ask to swim back and have adrain windsurf back . i was desperate. i honestly wasn't making any process with me forgettin wad i ought to do the moment i got the pole. so its useless, and i knew it. hahaha,but my swimming skills was damm embarressing too. i am like going 1cm per min . not good,.. hahha, so i end up "tow" and paddling back . then after lunch i thought with the added energy from chix rice and my very satisfactory grape drink i could do it. oh i was half right. well the second part i did better, i did enjoy maybe twice the great feeling of actually WINDSURF (and not simply the pushing of the current/ me manipulating the board) but it lasted like twenty seconds. =( and the problem arise . this time more serious. i have drifted further than before. i am frustrated at keep getting into the water. drinking the salty disgusting water through my nose. and my throat hurts. ha, me sound just like a brat. *disgust. hahaha.. and we shld be heading back too... oh no, and having the mentality tt everyone is a better surfer than me. i wanted to be out of the sea and back at shore ASAP. well then came adrain and his canoe. the genius (slacker ) in me thought of all i have been exclaiming i rather be canoeing.!! i can canoe, and it surely will get me back to shore faster than wad i have on my feet then and i won't not be falling back into the sea like every 5 mins. time spent out at sea passed so slow that i think its much frequent than tt, well canoeing back was a wise decision, no doubt! the rest was stranded outside and took quite a while to return, we went too far with limited ability to return back. ahhaha. =P but it was fun, the people are nice and friendly ......

I was reading through my past(not published) entries, and i could not help laughing at this entry(above). HAHAHa,basically its true when they say history repeats itself. huhz tsktsk. ... ahhahahha, so i thought no harm sharing this entry, Thought i was really pathetic then. ahahhahha,


I have an habit of staring at people/strangers and children. I find observing people interesting, and yen is always reminding me to not keep staring. I really stare blankly at people when they intrigued me.And children always gets my full undivided attention.. Sometimes its the conversation, sometimes its the behavious, sometimes its the looks & others times its how it brought back memories.So today , i was staring at one of MY EYE CANDY today when I was caught in the act. ahhahaha =P I even stop walking with my friend and just stood there and stare unintentionally for like so soooo long, hahahhaha. I deserved it ah! hahha, super ma lu. ahha, i need to master the "glance-past-i'm-not-staring-at-U-but-infact-I am" way of bioing. hahahhahha =)